Being an Adult

Today was my 27th birthday. I have been thinking about many things recently.
This past a few months, I had so many changes and I needed to accept those changes without knowing what the consequenses of those changes are. Then, I thought about what the meaning of being an adult. I wanted to be an professional baseball player when I was kid. Then, I realized I cannot be. simply, I drew a line by myself. I think I might be able to be one if I continued playing. but I gave up. why? I think I calculated to much at that time. What if I became professional baseball player, then what is next? To be a coach? to be a commentator? I chose business as my feild.
Then I met my loved one. I think it was quite romantic way we met. I thought she is the one. Then, after so many years later, just because of little noise from outside of our relationship, I have terminated the relationship. Claculation, well-understanding, relinquish.... As I grow old every year, I feel like I get better with doing those.... What is an adult? many people say that young people has so many possibilities. Why old people don't have those? I think all because you draw a line before even you try it. If you don't try it, you won't know. more experience might be able to indicate possibility of success. but there are always exceptions.
I am not good at expressing my own feelings. I understand. I tend to calculate before even start trying. But I want to regret with trying rather than witout trying even if the result wouldn't be what I was expecting. Without taking risks, you don't get big returns. If you stay at confortable zone, you wouldn't be able to differentiate from others. Every person is so special no matter how old the person is it wouldn't change that. whether the person is 10 years old or 60 years old or even 80 years old. Because the God created us fairly. We receive our opportunities equally likely. So here what I think, I'm 27 years old from today. People might call that is not young anymore. I don't care. I want to follow my heart. What I want, Where I want, How I want to be and with who. Because as long as I don't draw my line by myself, there will be a possibility of getting that. I might be stupid, but no matter how tiny the chances of getting what I want, I want to give a shot. By doing so, I won't regret for sure. I might feel sad if I don't achieve the goal, but no regret. I want to be like that no matter how old I am.